I'm pretty tired.
I'm tired of the constant noise..workers milling about, building things, breaking things
I'm tired of feeling like a prisoner in my own home..sneaking about, peeing quietly, pretending I'm not in
I'm tired of uninvited guests..painted smiles, offers of water, a seat
I'm tired of miscommunication..no, I said DON'T come over, not please come as soon as possible
I'm tired of being told to go to the hospital..a runny nose and a cough is not worth the $50 visit
I'm tired of the looks..from women, disdain..from men, fantasy..from children, fear
I'm tired of the whispers..we may not speak the same language, but gossip is everywhere
I'm tired of judgement..made to feel that the colour of my skin means I should be treated differently
I'm tired of my role..not only am I young, but I'm a woman, my voice is barely heard
I'm tired of negotiating friendships..no, I'm not your girlfriend, nope I'm not in love, yes we're JUST friends
I'm tired.
I'm tired of being a target, tired of being a dollar sign, tired of being an outsider..
Guess I should get some rest.
